[  Mood: Confused ]

[  Currently: Listening To Coheed and Cambria - The Willing Well IV: The Final Cut ]

I'm in that awkward state right now, where relationships aren't going anywhere because of me, I've rebuilt my wall, and won't let anymore people in, and I feel like a horrible person. For plenty of reasons. I feel cold....uncaring.....and altogether just wrong. And stuck.

Still in love.

With a retarded idiot.

I thought I'd fixed this.

I guess I was wrong.

And now I feel sick.

So here's a song, and lyrics, to go with what I feel at the moment.

The Willing Well IV: The Final Cut (Coheed and Cambria)

Direct Link

Lyrics (care of sing365 dot com
In the final curtain call
You left me here with the coldest of feelings
Weight, kind, depression
Blessing the floors with the places you've stepped in

Will they ever measure up
To the way you left me?
Here by the roadside
The bloodiest cadaver
Marked in your words
I'm the joke
I'm the bastard

Here wait, so I guess that you knew
That you're a selfish little whore
I'm the selfish little whore
If I had my way I'd crush your face in the door

This is no beginning, yeah yeah
This is the final cut, open up
This is no beginning, yeah yeah
This is the final cut, I'm in love

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By: RogueMarie | On: Thu Dec 04, 08 11:59 AM

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[  Mood: Laughing ]

[  Currently: Listening To Kamelot - Moonlight ]

Apparently I was being fought over the other day, and it almost broke out into a fist fight. This makes me giggle.

Also, I was told I'm a nice topic with a few of the guys up at the gaming (tabletop and such) store....

I find it unnerving to find out I'm talked about when I'm not there haha.

lol Nic, I blame you for this source of information haha. *cuz i know you're going to read this at some point*

anyway, I guess I'm just popping in here to give and update on life. Things are starting to pick up a little bit for me finally. Work is going well for me right now. I'm still haveing to get used to working a decent amount of hours as opposed to not really working at all for the past 3 months. I can finally get caught up on my bills and such. /sigh of relief

Once I get that done and out of the way, I'll pick up more into my little projects I've been doing. The little hats and dread falls i've been making! I'm so excited to be able to do these things. *posting pics for you to see*

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By: RogueMarie | On: Wed Nov 26, 08 11:21 AM

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[  Mood: Cool ]

[  Currently: Listening To Coheed and Cambria - Welcome Home ]

How many of you people actually pay attention to my weblog here? I just wonder. Post a comment so I can see who you are lol. And also I'm looking for a new background today...so maybe then it won't hurt to look at it....it kinda does that to me haha. Also, if you have any suggestions as to what else I should post about *not just my crushes of the week* feel free to let me know. But be serious. lol. I'm really looking for your input here not jokes.

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By: RogueMarie | On: Sun Nov 23, 08 12:20 PM

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[  Mood: Confused ]

[  Currently: Working on random projects ]

So I finally upgraded to Firefox 3, because my version of 2.kfdajsirfeuoiawhatever was messing up seriously. And I hate it. It's retarded.

And my mom's going to be pissed when she goes to login and her password isn't already sitting there for her....

/dies

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By: RogueMarie | On: Mon Nov 03, 08 11:22 AM

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[  Mood: Cool ]

[  Currently: Listening To My ACWW game sounds ]

So....I get a Wii this weekend AND it would appear that out of all the blogs I'm one of the few that hasn't bee bot spammed yet. haha.

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By: RogueMarie | On: Fri Oct 24, 08 10:44 AM

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[  Mood: Cool ]

lol...So I'm sitting here listening to chanting of "GO NINJA GO NINJA GO!" and watching men in giant turtle suits grabbing their mask/bandannas and pulling them tighter wondering if that would in fact give said ninja turtle a headache from his bandanna being too tight.

*shrugs* time to watch TMNT 3! haha

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By: RogueMarie | On: Sun Oct 19, 08 6:02 PM

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[  Mood: Cool ]

[  Currently: Watching Vampire in Brooklyn ]

So it's coming up on Halloween right? Nothing gets you in a better movie watching mood. So here's a list of some good movies for the halloween mood. ^_^
If you need summaries on any of these movies, I would just head on over to the Internet Movie Database and it will give you pretty much all you need.

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By: RogueMarie | On: Wed Oct 15, 08 11:39 AM

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[  Mood: Laughing ]

[  Currently: Watching Degrassi ]

Lol...okay, so I was watching Degrassi and one of the characters called their girlfriend "Boo" haha horrible. So I'm going to list a few of those taboo pet names. At least..taboo in my opinion lol.

Boo
Baby
Shorty (or Shawty wtf)
Practically any slang term Used in the HipHop nation for their signifacant other
Snookums and anything sickeningly sweet like that

...

Yeah that's all I can think of right now...

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By: RogueMarie | On: Sat Oct 04, 08 2:48 PM

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[  Mood: Indifferent ]

[  Currently: Listening To Robert Miles - Children ]

wtf man.

You ever notice that if you and your ex know a lot of the same people, you can't seem to get them out of your life?

And how even though he says something like "nothing you say matters to me anymore" or "your negativity can't hurt me" or some bullcrap like that? (damn hippie)

Why then...WHY...in the hell do they insist on attacking you when something you said has nothing to do with them?! WHAT IN THE HELL?!

That's it....I think I'm going to move to Canada or something. Cursed...make some room! lol

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By: RogueMarie | On: Thu Oct 02, 08 3:02 PM

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[  Mood: Sad ]

[  Currently: Listening To Sunfreakz - Drive Out ]

So...pain kind of hurts. I was walking through these apartments to a friend's house when another friend of mine came driving down the road/driveway thing. She stopped and slowed down to keep pace with me and my slowness. I was going to keep walking, but laziness prevailed. *sigh* Funny how that works right? Well it kicked my ass this time.

I hopped on the truck sitting on the tail gate, she sped up and I held on tight, and when she braked...the did so too hard and I lost my grip and went flying into the bed of the truck.

There were boards back there...

I have cuts and bruises all over the right side of my body now. *still* And my ribcage hurts like nobody's business.


OUCH!!1 @#!@$%^$@

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By: RogueMarie | On: Tue Sep 30, 08 10:52 AM

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